Hello esr,

Faithful to the tradition * of me being a semi-troll everytime i think of doing or saying something i find worthwhile, and faithful to the act of making a journal every now and then for no apparent reason, here's "stuff my esr journal is asking me for" (obviously no one else is asking me for it, so).


Some wise preliminary comments from the past, 2006 hollar!
http://www.esreality.com/?a=post&id=1015065#pid1015990
http://www.esreality.com/?a=post&id=1015065#pid1016677

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Stuff i've been doing (disclaimer; sounds as boring as it is)
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Since last time i've completed my bachelor in philosophy, got a girlfriend, and started my bachelor in physics. Moved in with a friend. Brother got a baby.

I'm trying to learn the piano. Trying to read a lot. Considering dancing. I've always been too shy to dance. Recently been attacked by choreography in dreams and daydreams. Maybe a sign to try.

Got this obsessive relationship with words lately. Trying to pin down the feelings that arise every now and then. In addition, i think, by doing a lot of math i become claustrophobic of system and rules and have to compensate by "breaking free" through words.

Just finnished my exams. Worked part-time at an activity-school for children this semester. Good job; but my knowledge of math being like swiss cheese, it was perhaps not the best idea. At least now i have enough money for a while.

Surrounded by children for a good three months really gave me some perspective. It was actually at this point; combining a new relationship, playing with children, and studying math - that i really came to understand Omar Rodriguez's music. It felt like it was the only realistic music at the time - a time when reality was larger than my ability to put it into a scheme. This was my theme. (warning! abrupt soundlevel-changes)

(This also made me appreciate "Donna Haraway". She's _apperently_ another "postmodern" crazy all-over-the place pseudo-philosopher. Anyway, if you're interested in "overmodern" philosophy, here's a video.)

I now know what growing up feels like: It feels like the crystalized stress and stiffness a few days of caffeine will inflict on you.. At least i've become this much wiser.

Been trying to get to know my own language (Norwegian) a little better. Found this guy named "Dag Solstad". Interesting to see a (contemporary) master of my native language in writing. In the papers now, the journalists - suddenly - soolame. It's a healthy perspective.

Doesn't seem like the singularity is upon us quite yet! Kurzweil and his doomsday-sign is largely ignored. They did open a "university" though. And in all fairness they have been gaining some ground. Only not as.. exponentially.. x)

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Music I like (this too)
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What else.. Right now i'm listening to glitch, idm.. I've taken my ambient and psychedelic tastes in the direction of Aphex Twin and Squarepusher. I mean; this and this (with somewhat interesting videos).

Also shifting between this guy Omar Rodriguez (saw him live now just a few weeks ago! :D) and Arvo Pärt as odd ones (especially to eachother) out of my little music-world.

I guess Arvo Pärt you'll have to discover on your own; but I can't imagine anyone with the tiniest religious sentiment being dissapointed by his album "Tabula Rasa".

As for Omar Rodriguez; Let me point out a few songs - maybe one of them will click.

Ambientish
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....-the-bosom
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....white-tile
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....e-los-ojos <3
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....atic-theme
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....r-by-venom

likeable?
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions.com/track/coma-pony
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....of-infancy
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....e-arakuine
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions.com/track/poincar

funky/jammin'
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....-un-higado
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....-tollbooth
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....rostituees
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....rren-oates

dissonance
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....er-of-myth
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions.com/track/old-money

new
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....-del-cielo (Omar singing - xD)
http://omardigital.rodriguezlopezproductions....co-da-gama ! newnew :}

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Conclusion (this is fucking awesome, though)
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I essentially always fall into trying to give people the experience i've gotten from music i like when i'm most intent upon communicating whatever it is that i want people to know. (Voices in my head: "And what is that, sir?" "Does it all boil down to music then, sir?")

And i always seem to write these journals around my exams! Always this angst after completing THE TEST, you know. Even right before i take it i already get that feeling; it's like you feel - now what? ...

Now I will go re-see Inland Empire.

Only two movies have given me this instant, grand, oneword-description;

2046 - "Masterpiece"
Inland Empire - "Momentous."

Unscientific last words: Though times are achanging', people think they are-a stayin the same ;)




Stuff (don't ask me)
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Like the day points to work and active mind, the night points to reflection and wonder. The end of the semester is like an evning, where thoughts have time to gather and swirl around unhindered by schedule and work.

Quake servers are a strange "culture", in a way. But the same kind of parimeters always rule behavior; the circumstance is so overarching, one has to kind of submit.

("then submit!!")

I will! just let me finnish my thought!! So you have to kind of break through the.. and then, like in the plays and movies you get that - breaking the fourth wall.. But what's the point of that? Living on that edge? Kinda looking in and out at the same time? I don't know..

Metaliving, and always that one eye to an outside. How can this be, though? This objective eye! Who wants it? It's paralyzing.

"So become a great actor!"

But actors are crazy! They say crazy things just because they know they can keep a straight face.

"you know, the greatest actor is the *preformer*"

Well! Hmm! Okay.. Maybe. I'll think about it.