Well tonight i had a conversation with my so-called girlfriend. Well not really girlfriend but we have sex and see eachother a few days every other week when she finds the time. Anyways, today i saw her online on msn and i write to her and ask her if she had a good day. Now she is supposed to visit me and sleep over from sunday to monday, anyways...
We chat back and forth she replies very slow, cause a lot of people usually writes to her, so i tell her that i'd let her write with her friends and that i dont mind cause i'd be seeing her tomorrow anyways.
Then she reply:
"god you annoy me so much, why do you have to be like that? You are so impatient and invading(dont know a better word), and its not exactly stuff that makes me feel more about you".

i was like wtf? so i just replied that i had no clue what she was talking about and that if she wants it that way then thats her problem, she then says "eh, ok" and moves offline.

WTF went wrong?

Oh well.

Later i decide to try online dating, i search profiles and write a small letter to those whoms pictures i find attractive, and it struck me that its an evil circle... I guess im around average in looks, but i cba. dating a girl who i dont find sexy, so im a bit picky and i checked maybe 200 profiles with picture and wrote 4 letters. None of them is propably gonna reply, cause they get so many letters every day and what the fuck are you supposed to write that gets their interest?

I could ofc. write that i have my own apartment with view to the sea, a car, and that im doing health exercising and studying to be a building technician, but...

My apartment is part of campus, small 1 room, hardly any kitchen but i got my own bathroom, my car im selling cause i cant afford it while i study, and the health exercising i just started as late as today, and my studies are doing bad, who on earth would date that? Well, i guess most internet relationships are pretty platonic at first anyways, but im getting to think that online dating is not the way to go for me, but what are my other options considering i live alone, generally i dont socialize a lot and i dont have money to go out a lot?