I've had possibly the most nerve wrecking and painfull 2 weeks of my life. I will not talk about my relationship in detail, just that we broke up, and we are going to give it another try when I get to the UK, although it doesn't look very hopeful. I quit my job just before we broke up so that was slightly strange.

So now it comes down to this... I have no fucking clue whats happening in my life anymore, I'm moving countries, i'm going to know no one in the UK, I'm not going to have a job, a gf, friends, a place to stay, family. I'm selling everything I own, my car and computer (which is why I have now quit Quake 3, most probably for good, since I can't go to any comps in SA or QLAN, and I'm not going to have a pc in the UK for a few months).

Basically I'm starting from scratch. Now people may say "THHEN WHYY R U GOIN TBON3!?!!?" Truth is, I'm starting to hate this place, everything is just trapping me, I need a new culture. Something my ex-gf told me was that there was actually people like us over there. What does that mean? It means that almost all the people I know in South Africa are just trying to be copies of something else, we are a recycled American / English culture, with high "values" and low moral respect for other people.

My life is fucked, you could say I have no life anymore, but hopefully whatever I find over there, is something that suits me better.

/me picks up my guitar

Time to get back to my old hobbies.

PS. Atari Teenage Riot solves everything.

PPS. MY body is looking good after doing normal exercises, and last week i started upping it, like jogging, and today I did 90 sit ups, aim is to be able to do 500 :))))