alright, this is my diary and this is how i feel.
heya, for those who don't know who i am i'm linus, i play quake three and i like sports. i have a girlfriend and i like to snowboard with my friend robin. or is it? this how i thought my life was until just 10 mins ago - i don't really know who and what i am, my life is based on lies it seems, but then again most things in it isn't. i dunno. it doesn't really make sense, heh. i've been feeling kinda good lately but yet again this fucking shitty feeling hits me like a bitchslap. they say that ppl never get 'cured' from depression, is that true? i don't know, it feels like it's true atleast. i orderd a new keyboard today, a bit shitty they only got that danish layout on datorbutiken, but whatever. heh. this sucks, i think i'm bored with this life i'm living. i even wish someone that i know died so something would be shaken up, maybe this is the bad effect with a perfect life.
i den döda vinkeln ser jag allt du gör.
speaking of döda vinkeln, i can't drive for shit - i'm so lazy that i can't book any appointments with my driverteacher. he's shit btw, i hate him. maybe he could die? i don't really care about the drivers license itself, it's the summerjob i wanna get, or rather, my dad wants me to work at his office. why? well, probably to show his co-workers 'how good his son is', but hey; i'm not that good duder. i wanna move away from home, i've been alone here since monday and i've felt much much better without my family. have you ever been without mirc for like a few hours without any reason? i'm kinda dealing with it now, i think i'm very addicted to it - keep alt-tabbing to it when it's on. now when i turned it off it seems lonley here.
but i guess this is life, i mean, if i compare it to quake - how nice is a frag if it's not hard to pull off? some frags seems simple and that's the beauty of it, pulling off something that looks easy but in fact it's skill/luck.
speaking of luck, i've noticed that luck do exist, i thought it didn't but when we studied it in maths i realized it really do exist. i want some new gear to my comp to make it look nice and be a bit more quiet. have you guys done any wardrobe-mods? i want to know how it works and if the fire risks are big etc. i'd be thankful for any advice on that. have you tried warsow? it really really has good potential, i'd rather play that than pk or q3 if they fix those few bugs and remove that strong/weak ammo system.
by the way, i really like my profile pic, it describes me perfectly.
tänk vad man kan göra med en liten kniv.